Grandpa is in the hospital;

He was throwing up tons of blood. I can't lose him. I don't know what it feels like to lose someone. And I don't want to. I just want him better Lord.

I have been a little upset today from it. I just feel like crying me eyes out right now, but I don't know where to do it. I just idk. Lord I don't want to question you, but sometimes I do a lot. I know you that you know that best for my Grandpa and for anyone for that matter, but I sometimes don't give the faith I should in You.

Anyways, I'm upset and I want to cry. I need a better day.