It's like nothing is wrong anymore. It's like it's okay to do anything. But when someone does the right thing, its "oh no, thats totally wrong, your the bad guy" like what the crap people. Seriously. But when you correct someone doing something wrong, they flip out. It's like you can't tell anyone anything anymore. What in the world is happening. You can't even trust your good friends to tell you the truth. This generation is pure in simple stupid.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Irritation;
I was gonna write what is bothering me, but you know I decided not to. What's writing something on here that is bothering me gonna do? Like honestly. Instead I'm taking it before my God. Letting it out on here isn't gonna solve or a do a single thing to help me.
Monday, November 7, 2011
Will You be there?
I trust that You will. You always will be there. You"ll never leave me. I don't have to worry about hanging on to You because You hang onto me. You'll never forsake me. Never.
Finishing up Government homework
I seem to always to it at the last minute. Procrastination at its best
Figured it out;
I figured out how to blend bass with guitar, without using bass tabs. Pretty simple actually. Now I can't wait till this weekend.
No high school tomorrow morning
What am I going to do?
I know my brother is get Modern Warfare 3 at midnight tonight at Gamestop, looks like I'm playing Modern Warfare 3 with him staying up pretty late.
After The Fall by We As Human
"Aren't you sick
How all the churches
In America are today?
They just wallow in their traditions
And their old religious ways.
They're so afraid of change
They derange and water down what they say
So as not to offend the ones who pay the bills
These preachers
They stand with their suits and their ties
And they only wear them
When they're in the public's eyes
Cause they're fake and they know it.
But they don't want you to know
That inside they're human just like you.
So they stand on their stages
Next to the flower arrangements
That were probaly paid for with the missionary's fund.
And we worship them like idols
And we say, "who needs the bible?
When we have a pastor that is just so much fun?"
I'm not saying they're all this way
I'm just saying we need to change"
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Above;
So many times
There were fights
About why
You stopped going
And just sat home
So many times I just cried
Broken down
Trying to decide
What to do
I called out to Him
To help you
This hurts me more than you
Your broken inside
Father has cancer
Asking God for the answer
Sister wants divorce
Asking God why she's falling off course
Anger being in the air
Making tears fall down
Inside my heart is about to tear
Oh God tear these walls down
They're between us
Everything is a mess
We feel left in despair
I looked up to you
Until you turned away
I can't go astray
I need to pray
I have to look to my Father above
He is the one who always shows me love
This is the effect
When I look to you like your perfect
This time I'll look to Him above
He is who I'm apart of
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Listen to this song, it talks about abortion from the child that is be aborted perspective, great song;
God answered my prayer;
So I suppose to take a test in my Government class today. I skipped my psychology class so that i can study for for my Government test. So I go into my Government class sit down, the teacher walks in and before she hands out the test she says "you can take this test the Wednesday before thanksgiving, if you feel like your not ready for it now" I'm thinking to myself "why the crap would i not take this opportunity to wait to take the test so i can have more time to study for it and do better?" so i told the teacher i will take the Wednesday before thanksgiving and then i left class. I was praying last night that God would help with this test, and He did.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Faker;
Faker!!!
You do what you want!!
Saying every curse word!!!
Calling them all names!!!
Not caring at all!!
You say you believe in Him!!!
But just tear down not build them up!!!----Ephesians 4:29
You talk behind their back!!!
Show all the hate!!
No love what so ever!!
How could you say your in the light?
You hate
Your in darkness!!! ------ 1 John 2:9
No one wants to believe!!
You give us a bad name!!
I'm having a hard time to forgive you!!
You act like them
But say you have Him
He sees all you do
You can't hide from Him
He knows your heart
He knows your soul
You can't hide from Him!!!!!!!!!!
You say you love Him
But show hate
How can you do this?
Just stop
Just stop destroying us!!!!!!!
Monday, October 17, 2011
Album (Continued)
So far this is what I got on my album;
Purpose of Life
- Judgment http://after-the-world-is-no-more.blogspot.com/2011/09/judgement.html
- Inside http://after-the-world-is-no-more.blogspot.com/2011/09/inside.html
- I Trust In You Alone http://after-the-world-is-no-more.blogspot.com/2011/09/i-trust-in-you-alone.html
- Never Ending http://after-the-world-is-no-more.blogspot.com/2011/09/never-ending.html
- Just The Way You Are http://after-the-world-is-no-more.blogspot.com/2011/09/just-way-you-are.html
- Purpose http://after-the-world-is-no-more.blogspot.com/2011/09/purpose.html
- Addiction http://after-the-world-is-no-more.blogspot.com/2011/10/addiction.html
Note: Hopefully here soon, probably whenever my best friend comes back down again, one of these songs will have music put to it. And maybe we"ll record it on video, maybe. If we do, then I will post the video on here for whoever reads this to watch.
Addiction;
At the bottom
Of my hole again
Can't find a way out
I just want more and more
Will this addiction ever satisfy?
I can't let it go!!
It has taken me over
This addiction always kicking in!!!
Settling down in the core of me!!!
Taking every part of me
Bound up inside!!!
Containing me!!!
Can I escape this?
Will it ever end?
Take this from me
I need to start to ascend!!!
I'm calling out to You
Take this from me
Take me over
Right now Your taking this from me
I'm able to let go of this
You saved me
I was lost inside!!!
Full of darkness
Chained up inside
You broke me free ------- Psalms 107:14
Broke me
You saved me
You saved me from this Addiction!!
I really want to do this;
Okay so I really want to go to Arizona to the Navajo Reservation for a mission trip this coming summer and also go on a mission trip with my Uncle's youth to Nicaragua this coming summer. I need to start saving money now for this. If it's God's will for me to go on these 2 mission trips.
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Liar by Disciple; This song is my life. Literally.
Disguised as a remedy
Take us higher than before
Enter the covenant
Not worth the paper that it's written on
When you speak we all wait 20 minutes before you ever even say a thing
And when your words finally make their way out on the stage
Only God knows what they even mean
You tell me not to speak, but you don't understand
That He's ashamed of me when I'm ashamed of Him [Mark 8:38]
What good is the next level if we gain the world, but then we lose our soul [Mark 8:36]
I'm not saying you're a liar
It's just that none of us believe a word you say
They say the tongue is like a fire [James 3:6]
Nothing but empty promises around your flame
I listen to what was said
Even though it's not the same as what you really meant
And when the light is shining on your lips
Can't take the blame when denial is your only friend
You tell me not to speak, but you don't understand
That He's ashamed of me when I'm ashamed of Him [Luke 9:26]
You don't believe anymore
The days turn to weeks then to months we haven't heard from you
I will forgive you [Luke 17:3-4]
But it will take some time to forget
I will forgive you [Matthew 18:21-22]
But it's gonna take some time
Sunday, October 9, 2011
I cannot stop reading John 17:20-26;
It's so amazing, and it makes me tear up. Gosh God is so amazing beyond words!
Tattoo Ideas;
Probably the 1st batman symbol, don't know where I want this tattoo
And I want to get
2 Corinthians 4:16-18 (NLT)
That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are[e] being renewed every day. 17 For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! 18 So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever.
I want this verse tattooed on my left arm, upper arm and in the same font as the "Disciple" tattoo above
Saturday, October 8, 2011
This is what I'm talking about in bible study;
· Who are you closes to in your family?
o Why are you close to that person?
§ Is it hard to show love backs towards that person?
· It’s the same with us Christians and God
o 1 John 4:19
§ We love each other because he loved us first.
· How are you doing with showing love to others that are living in sin or aren’t Christians?
· How do you think we are doing with showing love towards homosexuals, foul mouth kids, liars, and non-believers?
· We love them, but we don’t have to agree with what they do
o Luke 5:27-32
§ After this, Jesus went out and saw a tax collector by the name of Levi sitting at his tax booth. “Follow me,” Jesus said to him, 28 and Levi got up, left everything and followed him.
§ 29 Then Levi held a great banquet for Jesus at his house, and a large crowd of tax collectors and others were eating with them. 30 But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law who belonged to their sect complained to his disciples, “Why do you eat and drink with tax collectors and sinners?”
§ 31 Jesus answered them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. 32 I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.”
· Us Christians are called to be like Christ, so in this passage Christ showed loved to those still enslaved to sin, but he went to show that they can be set free, to let them know that this isn’t what they were created for.
· John 8:34
o Jesus replied, “Very truly I tell you, everyone who sins is a slave to sin
§ Whoever sins is controlled by it.
· We need to start seeing people like Jesus did
o When Jesus was hanging on a cross he said “Father forgive them for they not know what they do”
§ Jesus wasn’t looking at them and hating them, He was looking at what they are doing. He was looking at the sin in their life and what was controlling them.
· That is the reason He gave his life. To set them and us free.
o God never meant for us to be slaves to sin or anything, God wants us to be free.
· The reason why Christians talk about sin so much is because sin enslaves us.
o God has a better life for us
· We don’t need to judge others for sinning
o We all have sinned a lot, why are you gonna judge someone for sinning when you have sinned too?
§ Matthew 7:1-5
· “Do not judge others, and you will not be judged. 2 For you will be treated as you treat others.[a] The standard you use in judging is the standard by which you will be judged.[b]
· 3 “And why worry about a speck in your friend’s eye[c] when you have a log in your own? 4 How can you think of saying to your friend,[d] ‘Let me help you get rid of that speck in your eye,’ when you can’t see past the log in your own eye? 5 Hypocrite! First get rid of the log in your own eye; then you will see well enough to deal with the speck in your friend’s eye.
o We don’t need to judge somebody for being a homosexual or being a liar because they have hang ups.
§ If we look at ourselves and see what God has saved us from that we have no right to judge anyone for what they have done wrong.
· We are commanded
o To love, to love at all cost
§ Jesus has given us a command
· Luke 10:27
o He answered, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.
§ Not with a little of your heart or a little bit of your soul, but with ALL of your heart and ALL of your soul.
· See people the way Jesus did
· Matthew 9:36
i. When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them because they were confused and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd.
a. Want to help others like Jesus did, have sympathy for others.
· Reach out the way people (Luke 5:27-32)
· Love people the way Jesus did
· (John 8:1-7)
i. Jesus returned to the Mount of Olives, 2 but early the next morning he was back again at the Temple. A crowd soon gathered, and he sat down and taught them. 3 As he was speaking, the teachers of religious law and the Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught in the act of adultery. They put her in front of the crowd.
ii. 4 “Teacher,” they said to Jesus, “this woman was caught in the act of adultery. 5 The Law of Moses says to stone her. What do you say?”
iii. 6 They were trying to trap him into saying something they could use against him, but Jesus stooped down and wrote in the dust with his finger. 7 They kept demanding an answer, so he stood up again and said, “All right, but let the one who has never sinned throw the first stone!”
· To love them, to want something better for them. Not show how awesome I am or anything, but to show how AWESOME He is and show them that they can be free.
· My question for you guys is
· Are you a slave right now? Is there sin in your life right now that you haven’t asked God to forgive you of?
i. There is great news for you
a. Jesus told a great parable: Matthew 18:12-14
a. “If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them wanders away, what will he do? Won’t he leave the ninety-nine others on the hills and go out to search for the one that is lost? (13) And if he finds it, I tell you the truth, he will rejoice over it more than over the ninety-nine that didn’t wander away! (14) In the same way, it is not my heavenly Father’s will that even one of these little ones should perish.
i. I want you to know that He is leaving everybody else and coming after you.
· The devil likes to tell you lies that God hates us for what we have done.
· Jesus tells us the exact opposite, Jesus says he is coming after you.
i. His arms are wide open to you, he wants you. He wants to find you he wants to rescue you; He wants to set you free. He wants you no longer a slave.
a. If you think God is pointing his finger at you for what you have done. That’s a lie.
a. God is looking at you with his arms wide open.
Friday, October 7, 2011
Whoa;
(34)Women should remain silent in the churches. They are not allowed to speak, but must be in submission, as the law says.(35)If they want to inquire about something, they should ask their own husbands at home; for it is disgraceful for a woman to speak in the church.
1 Corinthians 14:34-35
I need to get back on track, nothing else matters to me, except Jesus.
I just want to know Him more and more. I don't want to fall into sin.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
I seriously started crying reading this earlier;
John 17:20-26
“My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, 21 that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. 22 I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one— 23 I in them and you in me—so that they may be brought to complete unity. Then the world will know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me.
24 “Father, I want those you have given me to be with me where I am, and to see my glory, the glory you have given me because you loved me before the creation of the world.
25 “Righteous Father, though the world does not know you, I know you, and they know that you have sent me. 26 I have made you[e] known to them, and will continue to make you known in order that the love you have for me may be in them and that I myself may be in them.”
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Got Jenna her birthday card for her birthday. Got her a 15$ Starbucks gift card for her birthday too, cause she loves coffee and Starbucks.lol Still gotta write in her card though. No big deal
So excited for tomorrow!
I'm so excited to speak tomorrow at bible study at school. I have like 3 pages of notes on what I want to talk about. I showed Jenna this morning my notes and she was like "Oh my gosh Ryan, this is so great, you should be a pastor." then she said I won't be able to get through all of what I want to talk about tomorrow cause of how much time we have during lunch, so she is gonna have me continue it next week too! God is so good.
Monday, October 3, 2011
Is it just me? Or is when someone doesn't hardly ever text you back bother you?
I swear, out of everyone, only my best friend Tom and Jenna text back, some others text back every now and then. But seriously for all I know the people that don't text back, they could be dead or something, cause they never text back.
Gosh;
Kevin Young's sermons have changed my life. It has gotten me so much closer to God and has me understanding God and God's word so much more. I feel so different. I feel so different that I told Jenna to let me speak at bible study at are school on Wednesday. I am so incredibly excited to speak. Can't wait to see how God is gonna speak through me. I was at my Uncle's youth last night and afterwards, I had my uncle look at my sermon notes, and to maybe change some stuff. It looks pretty good now. God Bless
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Homecoming;
Homecoming last night was amazing and awesome! I had so much fun! I went with Jenna and her little group, she took a ESE kid Jade with her so she can experience Homecoming and getting ready with girls. Anyways, I went to the Premo's house at like 4:30, took pictures with them and stuff. Then me, Jenna and the girl Jade went to Gemini springs where Jenna was doing Homecoming pictures with the Seniors. Then a girl Nora that was there was riding with us and going to Chills with us. So I met her, she was pretty cool and funny, not gonna lie.lol So after the pictures at Gemini we went to Chills. It was pretty cool sat with like 10 other people that were going to homecoming too. Jenna doesn't like being at homecoming when it exactly starts cause no one is hardly there, which I don't blame her. So she is like "Lets so to star bucks in target". So went to star bucks, got some coffee, well I got this strawberry smoothie. Anyways, then roamed around target. Then the Nora is like "Ryan lets take a picture together" So I'm like sure why not. Then me, Jenna, Jade, and Nora took had this random person take a picture of us in front of target, with the Target sign in it. Then we headed to Homecoming. I danced so much, my gosh, never danced so much in my life, it was so fun. Then after Homecoming, we went back to the Premo's house to hang out. The Premo's always have an after party at their house, so that other kids don't go to drinking parties and stuff. But I stayed at the party for like 30 minutes then had to head home. Last night was awesome!
Friday, September 30, 2011
My best friend has been at my house for like that last 4 hours;
His beard looks amazing. He needs to keep growing it. I hear more girls liking facial hair then not liking it. I told him to keep growing it and try to go for the Wolverine look.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Purpose;
Sitting in the corner of my room
Crying nonstop
Everyday wonder why I am here
Is there a purpose for me
Day by day
Feeling I have no purpose
No one sees
No one needs me
All I have are these scars
I will end
Tonight
As I grab a knife
To end my life
God whispered to me
I have purpose for you
Purpose for your life
I have plans not to harm you
Plans to give you hope---Jeremiah 29:11
I fall to my knees
I begin to cry
Save me tonight
He took me by the hand
Touched my scars
Healed them
Told me
I created you for a reason
I will change you like the seasons
Hold on to me
I will show you
Your purpose
Every day now I walk
Knowing my purpose
God works for the good of those who love him
Who have been called according to his purpose----Romans 8:28
My life has a purpose
I was never here for no reason
I know there is a purpose to life
A purpose to life
I know there is a purpose to life
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Gosh;
The band Disciple's lead singer, Kevin Young is an amazing speaker. I'm in a broken down moment cause I'm getting so touched. Whoever is reading this, and you need something to listen to or do. Go to youtube and type in the search bar "Kevin Young sermons" or "Kevin Young Speaking"
Here are some of my favorites sermons by him:
- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eX1lOa3o9h4&feature=related (Starts singing a song at 5:54)
This sermon is in 3 parts watch each link in order:
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Just The Way You Are;
Everynight you fall apart
Not feeling anything
Just a broken heart
Everything just getting worse
Not wanting to move on
You want to let go
Before you decide to go
I want to let you know
I'm passionate about you
I know your name
I know your pain
You need to know
I love you
Just the way you are
I am by Your side
Don't go
You need to know
No matter what you have done
Nothing can change how much I love you
Before you decide to go
I want to let you know
I'm passionate about you
I know your name
I know your pain
You need to know
I love you
Just the way you are
Through everything you have been told
The hurt you felt inside
It doesn't matter what you have gone through
I am passionate about you
Every tear you dropped
All the pain
Every loneliness feeling
I felt right with you
Don't go tonight
I am here with my arms open wide
Let me save you
I am passionate about you
I love you
Just the way you are
You won't be alone anymore
I don't know what to say about today.
Oh well. Tomorrow is a new day. No need to get caught up with things that happened today. Tomorrow is a new day. Gotta keep looking forward and not complain about anything. There is so many things to be thankful for.
Monday, September 26, 2011
Will Robin Appear in ‘The Dark Knight Rises’?
A Michigan based news outlet is reporting that ‘The Dark Knight Rises’ crew has been scouting locations for Robin’s hideout – could The Boy Wonder really be making an appearance in the film?
Christopher Nolan has mentioned on several occasions that he has no interest in featuring the character of Robin in any of his Batman films. However, that hasn’t stopped some fans from passionately defending the iconic sidekick’s place in the Caped Crusader’s mythology or offering suggestions on how he would best fit into Nolan’s version of Gotham City.
Since The Dark Knight Rises is being crafted as the concluding chapter of a trilogy, there’s been a lot of speculation over how this storyline might wrap up. The Dark Knight hammered home the notion that Bruce does not want to continue wearing the cape & cowl forever and as a result, justification for introducing Robin has reached a fever pitch.
If you fall on the pro-Robin side of the debate, some encouraging news has just appeared on the web site of Michigan’s WILX. Crew members from The Dark Knight Rises have been scouting locations for the film in Grand Ledge and in addition to detailing where they’ve been looking, WILX also claims to know what they’ve been searching for:
“They looked at the Ledges as well as a water treatment plant located inside the park. Sources say the area is being considered as a hideout for Batman sidekick Robin.”
“They looked at the Ledges as well as a water treatment plant located inside the park. Sources say the area is being considered as a hideout for Batman sidekick Robin.”
Now obviously this isn’t any sort of official confirmation, but it is slightly more credible than some other recent rumors. If this does turn out to be true, will we finally have an answer regarding which role Joseph Gordon-Levitt will be playing in the film? Our own Rob Frappier recently explored that question and speculated that Dick Grayson (the original Robin) was certainly a possibility, but that his Nightwing alter-ego seemed more appropriate for Nolan’s universe (and Gordon-Levitt’s age).
Now obviously this isn’t any sort of official confirmation, but it is slightly more credible than some other recent rumors. If this does turn out to be true, will we finally have an answer regarding which role Joseph Gordon-Levitt will be playing in the film? Our own Rob Frappier recently explored that question and speculated that Dick Grayson (the original Robin) was certainly a possibility, but that his Nightwing alter-ego seemed more appropriate for Nolan’s universe (and Gordon-Levitt’s age).
Following the time frame of Batman’s career that’s been established in the comics, this would be a logical point to introduce Robin – but I highly doubt Nolan feels obligated to adhere that closely to the source material. Personally, I always thought the character seemed at odds with the current franchise’s sensibilities – but Nolan does love to throw his audience curve balls.
Even if The Dark Knight Rises doesn’t have an ending as definitive as Bruce giving up his Batman persona, having someone else primed to inherit the role of Gotham’s protector from him does make a lot of sense thematically. So even though I’m not sold on the idea of Robin making an appearance, I do understand how he might potentially factor into this story in a very organic way.
The other thing to consider is that even if Robin is in the film, he’ll likely be presented in a completely different manner than we’re accustomed to seeing him (much like Two-Face and the Joker). In fact, I believe one of the major reasons Nolan was so excited about The Dark Knight was the opportunity to reinvent the Joker. Might the same be true for Robin?
Source: http://screenrant.com/robin-the-dark-knight-rises-schrad-99995/
I'm offically writing an album. Kinda got an idea of what I I'm gonna call th album. Here it is:
Purpose of Life
- Judgment http://after-the-world-is-no-more.blogspot.com/2011/09/judgement.html
- Inside http://after-the-world-is-no-more.blogspot.com/2011/09/inside.html
- I Trust In You Alone http://after-the-world-is-no-more.blogspot.com/2011/09/i-trust-in-you-alone.html
- Never Ending http://after-the-world-is-no-more.blogspot.com/2011/09/never-ending.html
Never Ending;
Your love just pouring all over me
It's never gonna stop
Fills every part of me
Just so I can see
This love never ends
Through it all
Everytime I fall
Your love is there
Never ending love
Always there
Love pouring out of me
It touches the deepest parts of me
Your love is a mystery
When I don't deserve anything
You filled every rose with love
This love never ends
Through it all
Everytime I fall
Your love is there
Never ending love
Always there
I belong to You
Never could I let You go
This love keeps me together
Through every storm
You keep this heart warm
Everytime I fell
You picked me up
Into the arms of love
You showed
Never ending love
Never ending love
You are love-----1 John 4:8
Friday, September 23, 2011
Why is there so much going on right now;
- My Grandpa is having health problems with his cancer
- My Aunt & Uncle's marriage is falling apart
- My other Aunt, she is 3 months pregnant and got in a little car accident today, she slid her car into someone elses car today and now her stomach hurts, so hopefully the baby is okay.
- My dad is going though stuff
- I'm going through a tough time myself, but I got my own stuff to worry about, plus all these other things.
I love them;
Kaleigh texts me telling me that she heard that I've been going through a tough time and is prayering for me, my Aunt, and my Grandpa. Gosh I love her. Heck I love the whole Premo family so much.
I now can't wait till homecoming next Saturday.
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Game On by Disciple;
The best part of this song:
I'm not afraid of loving my enemies
Turning the other cheek
Blessing those that would curse me
I honestly want peace with you
But when you come against my country
When you come against my family
You try to destroy my people
I can't just stand by
There's no way that I can stand by
This time, I will not stand by
I am coming, and if I come, then pain is coming with me
I'm coming, and pain will be with me
Turning the other cheek
Blessing those that would curse me
I honestly want peace with you
But when you come against my country
When you come against my family
You try to destroy my people
I can't just stand by
There's no way that I can stand by
This time, I will not stand by
I am coming, and if I come, then pain is coming with me
I'm coming, and pain will be with me
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
I Trust In You Alone;
I've gone through so much in my life
So much regret living inside
Every moment I was fading away
Broken down till I cried
Till I cried out to You
Now I see Your love for me
Show me what you want me to see
I trust in Your unfailing love----Psalms 13:5
I trust in You
I trust in You alone
Everytime he tells me a lie
I call on Your name
You my God are always nearby
I won't let You go
This time I'm hanging to everything I know
I won't let You go
Now I see Your love for me
Show me what you want me to see
I trust in Your unfailing love----Psalms 13:5
I trust in You
I trust in You alone
I will never be alone again
Your by my side
Taking me each step of the way
Being my guide
I trust in You
Now I see Your love for me
Show me what you want me to see
I trust in Your unfailing love----Psalms 13:5
I trust in You
I trust in You alone
The old is gone
The new has come----2 Corinthians 5:17
Never could I go back
You took the pain away
I'll never be the same
You changed the deepest part of me
You took it all away
You took it all away
I will never let you go
I trust you
Never let you go
I have trust in you alone
Monday, September 19, 2011
Trust;
I trust very little people. Pretty sad that you can't hardly trust anyone now a days, but outside of family, I probably only trust just this one family The Premo family, maybe 1 or 2 others, but it depends. I would say my best friend Tom, but he falls into the family category for me so, automatically I trust him. But honetly that is who all I trust outside my family, I don't talk to everyone in the Premo family, but definitely Jenna, then Mr.Tom and Kaleigh. That's who I trust.
Bass Guitar is amazing just saying;
Learning Awake & Alive by Skillet on the Bass now and Lucy by Skillet! God Bless!!
Last night my uncle's youth was over and I'm just hanging out talking to people. Then my phone rings. Jenna was calling me. She is so flippin' nice. She called to check up on me to see how I'm doing with everything going on with my grandpa. Now that's what I call an Awesome Sister in Christ right there. We talked for like 10 minutes probably. She is like "I called cause I didn't want to text you and see how your doing, I wanted to talk voice to voice with you." then says later on "If you need anything let me know okay? I'm here for you Ryan" She is such a great friend. I'm glad I have a Sister in Christ like that.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
My Grandpa just wrote this on his facebook page;
"I have strong faith in God, He will see me through"
I love you Grandpa<3
Writing a lot of songs lately;
Grandpa I want to promise you something.
I will continue this bass guitar playing in our family. I will continue.
I will continue to write songs about God and write songs to help others.
I will be involved in music for the Glory of God.
I promise you these things.
Today;
Never cried so much in my life. I'm so emotionally drained. Finding out that my Grandpa has cancer now the back of his tongue and somewhere else. But to hear that doctors can not remove it because of it be located where it is. So when you don"t get cancer removed, it spreads else where in your body. So basically we don't know how much longer he will be with us.
Gosh, I can't cope with this. So much is going through my head. Just the thought of losing anyone close to me, is heart breaking, let alone my own Grandpa.
Not to long ago today I was reading stuff that my cousin was posting on his best friend's facebook wall. My cousin lost his best friend in tragic accident last year (10-23-10) and just seeing my cousin write stuff on his best friend's wall, saying he misses him and just basically telling him about his day at school and stuff. It just hits me. The lost of someone. I can say if my best friend some how died, more than half of me would die. Just death in itself. Gosh. But the bright side is, that my cousin's best friend was saved, my cousin WILL see him again one day. I know my Grandpa is saved, when his time comes, I WILL see him again one day when my time comes.
I was talking to my other Grandpa today. He tells me something (To comfort me) he tells me "One good thing about being a Christian, is that this isn't the end, and this isn't the end to seeing your Grandpa, you WILL see him again one day." Made me think. So much.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Inside;
Something is ripping me apart
I can't take it anymore
It needs to die!!
It needs to die!!!!!
You are close to the broken hearted!!!
You save those crushed in spirit!!!----------Psalm 34:18
Change me inside!!!
I'm falling apart!!!
I need something to save me!!!
You are the bread of life!!!!
I will never thirst again!!!!---------John 6:35
Before I found You
It was my hell without You!!!!
I will rejoice when troubles come now!!--------James 1:2
You have changed me inside!!!!!!
You healed this broken heart!!!-----Psalms 147:3
You are close to the broken hearted!!!
You save those crushed in spirit!!!----------Psalm 34:18
Change me inside!!!
I'm falling apart!!!
I need something to save me!!!
You are the bread of life!!!!
I will never thirst again!!!!---------John 6:35
I have sinned against my God!!!
I knew what was good!!!
I turned against good!!!------James 4:17
Forgive me!!!!!
For....give!!!!!
Me!!!!!!
I resisted you and you fled!!!!-----James 4:7
I will take heart!!!
You my God!!!!!
Have overcome the world!!!!----------James 16:33
I have my God on my side!!!
Go ahead try to take me down again!!!
This time He is with me!!!!
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Judgement;
Verse 1:
You can"t judge!
Your not the Almighty one!
God himself will get you on judgement day!
Chorus:
Go ahead and judge me!
There is only one Judge
He is able to save and destroy-------James 4:11-12
Who are you to judge me!
This is not your judgement!
Verse 2:
Judge not!
And you will not be judged!----------Luke 6:37
Go ahead and try to hurt me
Try to take me down!
You won"t get no where!
Your judgment is not gone
You don't know where you belong
Chorus:
Go ahead and judge me!
There is only one Judge
He is able to save and destroy-------James 4:11-12
Who are you to judge me!
This is not your judgement!!!!!
Bridge:
For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ---------2 Corinthians 5:10
I tell you that everyone will have to give account
On the day of judgment
For every empty word they have spoken-------------Matthew 12:36
Judge nothing before the appointed time;
Wait until the Lord comes!!!!!!!!!!!!!--------1 Corinthians 4:5
Verse 3:
Why do you judge your brother!!!!!
Why do you treat them with contempt!!!
We will all stand before God’s judgment seat!!!!!------Romans 14:10
There is a judge for the one who rejects me!!!!
And does not accept my words!!!!
The very words I have spoken
Will condemn them at the last day!!!!!-----John 12:48
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Gosh dang;
What the crap is happening! So much is happening to people right now.
Where is the happiness?
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Friday, September 2, 2011
To be totally honest right now;
I'm strayed away from my faith right now. I'm not close to God like I should be. :(
I just want to see my best friend
It seems like nothing ever works out. I would ride my bike just to go see him. Well thats a little overly intense, but basically just get the picture of how bad I want to see my best friend. It isn't the same when I hang out with other friends. It just isn't the same. I don't laugh like I usually do. I just idk. I really haven't laughed a whole lot since he left. I just want to see him. Idk how much longer I can take. I feel like crying right now, cuz I miss him so much. To be honest, I feel like I have no other friends. I'm so alone at church, no one really talks to me, cuz mostly I'm known has a jerk because of stupid people saying crap in the past. There is hardly anything for me to look forward to anymore.
I'm sad right now and I'm not sure how to handle this.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
People have no idea how bad I want to start a band;
The more I listen to music the more and more I want to start a band or be in one.
Monday, August 29, 2011
A girl at my school committed suicide over the weekend. I didn't really know her but it still hurts me and makes me sad. I don't know if she was saved or not. It breaks my heart that I don't know if she was saved or not. I don't know if she suffering still or not. :(
Saturday, August 27, 2011
I don't know what I want to do after college;
I honestly just want to start my own Christian rock band or be in one, but everyone expects you to go to college. Whatever I guess, maybe I don't want to, I'm going to college right now, so technically I will have some college when I graduate. Maybe I don't want to do what everyone else does, just go to college. Maybe God isn't calling me to go to college. How do you know isn't just calling me to just go start a Christian Rock band or go be in one to just live for Him. Would anyone support me then? Probably not, but I don't need to go to college to live for God. Just spit balling here.
Honestly it comes down to this, I would be so totally cool with going to college for video game designing. Then when I'm done with college, do my video game thing and do what I always dreamed of doing is be in a Christian Rock band or start my own. Like having a little side project for my life. You know? Anyways, I don't know anything for sure right now. I'm only a junior, I still have over a year before I graduate, so I still have time to think about this, but it's gonna be here before I know it.
Parents are leaving Wednesday for their 20th anniversary vacation. It's just gonna be me and my 2 brothers for 4 days. Well were more than likely gonna go to my grandparents though.
Honestly;
The only two things that I'm looking forward to is going to visit my best friend & Night Of Joy on September 9-10 with my cousin and his youth group.
I don't know, I'm so bored as in having no one to hang out with. I hope was college starts I'll feel a little better. Maybe.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Hedley - Perfect
Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise.
I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes.
Making every kind of silence, takes a lot to realize
Its worse to finish then to start all over and never let it lie.
And as long as I can feel you holding on. I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong.
I'm not perfect but I keep trying cause that's what I said I would do from the start.
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave. Was it something I said or just my personality?
Making every kind of silence, It takes a lot to realize
Its worse to finish then to start all over and never let it lie.
And as long as I can feel you holding on. I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong.
I know that I'm not perfect but I keep trying cause that's what I said I would do from the start.
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave. Was it something I said or just my personality?
When you're caught in a lie, and you've got nothing to hide,
When you've got nowhere to run, and you've got nothing inside.
It tears right through me, you thought that you knew me, you thought that you knew..
I'm not perfect but I keep trying cause that's what I said I would do from the start.
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave. Was it something I said or just my personality?
I'm not perfect but I keep trying cause that's what I said I would do from the start.
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave. Was it something I said or just my, just myself?
Just myself? Myself? Just myself?
I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
Hedley - Perfect
Hedley - Trip
Some say love is not for sinners
I believe that isn't true
'Cause when I was finished sinning
Love came down and showed me you
And you told me how to get there
so I tried to find a way,
I ran through the garden,
but I tripped on the gate,
but I tripped on the gate.
[Chorus:]
What are you doing to me?
I'm so into you
And the hardest part is knowing
That I'll never follow through
You're slowly killing me
And I wish it wasn't true
Cause I'm so into you
Like a ton of bricks it hit me
And woke me from this dream
No matter how hard I tried to wash my hands
I could never get 'em clean
I could never get 'em clean
What are you doing to me?
I'm so into you
And the hardest part is knowing
That I'll never follow through
You're slowly killing me
And I wish it wasn't true
Cause I'm so into you
Can you hear me?
Cause I can't change what I'll always be
What are you doing to me?
I'm so into you
And the hardest part is knowing
That I'll never follow through
You're slowly killing me
And I wish it wasn't true
Cause I'm so into you
(Oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh)
I'm so into you
(Oh oh oh oh oh oh)
Cause I'm so into you
(Oh oh oh oh)
I'm so into you
(Oh oh oh oh oh oh)
Hedley - Trip Acoustic (Below)
I'm gonna miss my 2 best friends so much.
I don't know how to react to them both being leaving. Who am I gonna sit next to at church now? This is gonna be so tough. I'm crying and I don't know what else to do. I'm gonna miss them so much, I just..I don't know. This is so hard righ now. :'(
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
I'm questioning you Lord;
I can't let this take over me. I can't let it. I need to keep strong. I need to break free. But I can't do it without you Lord. Help me.
I'll fight to the end of this war
The war for my soul
The war to take over me
I won't lay my weapons down
I won't be swayed so easily
I'm on the side of MY LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST
THE BATTLE IS WON
THE WAR WILL BE WON
Monday, August 15, 2011
Just letting everyone know;
If you hurt or upset one of my friends, especially one of my closest friends. Expect me to very pissed at you. Expect me not to be nice to you. Expect me wanting to hurt you or upset you back .
Sunday, August 14, 2011
You know;
I want to know when I will get a girl friend. To be honest I want to have girl that really truely cares about me and wants to talk to me all the time. Also, just to have a girl to talk to all the time and be open about things too. Idk, I just want that really bad, cause I just feel I would feel a lot better.
You say there's nothing special about you.
You say there's nothing to love about you and that everyone hates you.
I know it's just your depression talking, since I keep a list and everyday I add a new thing I love about you, right off the bat, to it.
You'll be getting it on your birthday.
Source: http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com/view/Love/144167
Saturday, August 13, 2011
The average person tells 4 lies a day.
And 1460 a year.
A total of 88,000 by the age of 6.
The most common lie is "I'm fine."
Source: http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com/view/Self-esteem/399468
Guys, if you really like a girl, you should tell her.
If you really cared about her and thought she was worth it, you would tell her.
Because if you don't tell her, how do you know she's not laying in her bed every night wondering why she isn't good enough?
Source: http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com/view/Love/599346
People always say how skinny I am.
Truth is, I feel horrible because I eat so much, and I don't gain any weight. All while so many girls try so hard to lose a few pounds.
To all you "bigger" girls: you're beautiful just the way you are. Never let anyone tell you otherwise.
Source: http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com/view/Self-esteem/247613
I was diagnosed with cancer yesterday, it's terminal, i am going to die.
I see all of you people on here, and I read about your secrets, about how you want to die.
I don't understand it, I have to die, I have no choice, but you do. Choose life.
Source: http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com/view/Hope/194173
I know what it's like to feel like you have no one in this world who cares about you.
I'd like for everyone too feel as though they do. So, as being the first, I'd like to introduce myself.
Hi, I'm a random stranger. And I care
Source: http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com/view/Hope/138950
I pitched a perfect game as a freshman and everyone went to this huge party but me.
Instead, I rode my bike 10 miles to stop my friend from committing suicide. I was hit by a car on my way there.
I saved my friends life, but lost both arms. I'll never pitch again, but seeing my friend smile is worth it.
Source: http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com/view/Friends/257609
I'm known as the shoulder to go to.
I'll listen to your secrets and not say a word while you talk, and provide advice later.
But, sometimes, I wish that I could have someone who returns the favor.
Source: http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com/view/Self-esteem/245996
I sorta want something really bad to happen to me...
like a car accident or something... but I don't want to be hurt.
I just want to know who'd care enough to visit me in the hospital...
Source: http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com/view/Hope/294330
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