Today;

Never cried so much in my life. I'm so emotionally drained. Finding out that my Grandpa has cancer now the back of his tongue and somewhere else. But to hear that doctors can not remove it because of it be located where it is. So when you don"t get cancer removed, it spreads else where in your body. So basically we don't know how much longer he will be with us.

Gosh, I can't cope with this. So much is going through my head. Just the thought of losing anyone close to me, is heart breaking, let alone my own Grandpa.

Not to long ago today I was reading stuff that my cousin was posting on his best friend's facebook wall. My cousin lost his best friend in tragic accident last year (10-23-10) and just seeing my cousin write stuff on his best friend's wall, saying he misses him and just basically telling him about his day at school and stuff. It just hits me. The lost of someone. I can say if my best friend some how died, more than half of me would die. Just death in itself. Gosh. But the bright side is, that my cousin's best friend was saved, my cousin WILL see him again one day. I know my Grandpa is saved, when his time comes, I WILL see him again one day when my time comes.

I was talking to my other Grandpa today. He tells me something (To comfort me) he tells me "One good thing about being a Christian, is that this isn't the end, and this isn't the end to seeing your Grandpa, you WILL see him again one day." Made me think. So much.