I just want to see my best friend

It seems like nothing ever works out. I would ride my bike just to go see him. Well thats a little overly intense, but basically just get the picture of how bad I want to see my best friend. It isn't the same when I hang out with other friends. It just isn't the same. I don't laugh like I usually do. I just idk. I really haven't laughed a whole lot since he left. I just want to see him. Idk how much longer I can take. I feel like crying right now, cuz I miss him so much. To be honest, I feel like I have no other friends. I'm so alone at church, no one really talks to me, cuz mostly I'm known has a jerk because of stupid people saying crap in the past. There is hardly anything for me to look forward to anymore.

I'm sad right now and I'm not sure how to handle this.