So

I have been having these repeating dream lately. And they have been about me and this person (that I use to really good friends and I ended our friendship) being good friends or being good friends again. And like some of them were convicting me. So I told my best friend about this. And he said that this maybe God trying to tell me something.

So now I made a bad decision or wrong decision. I thought maybe ending the friendship would help me, but honestly it has made worse. I thought it would let me starting growing, and blaming her saying it was her of why I wasn't maturing Christ because of her. Yeah, I was totally wrong. It was me. It's so stupid how us people blame others.

I want to make things right. I'm idiot for what I did. Honestly, I need her, but I don't deserve a 2nd chance. I don't know if she will even let me talk to her. I want to. If things don't work out. Then that's what I get for doing what I did.

Lord help me work this out